What an amazing and beautiful night. I don't think words will be able to do it justice, but I'm going to try anyway. I can't stop watching the snow blanket my world, it's almost as if mother earth was putting her child to sleep. Yeah, it's a silly metaphor but I can't stop thinking about how gorgeous it looks outside. Even as I drove home and felt my tires lose traction, all I could think about was perfect the night looked. Maybe that just shows that beauty is inherently dangerous.

Snow is a strange phenomenon, at least in my eyes. I can't think of anything else that can simultaneously freeze time, yet still be moving forward. It both weighs down the world and lifts it up. It softens the light and brightens the night. It is the perfect contradiction.

Right now, I feel like a kid who just discovered his first love and has locked himself away in his room and is trying to find a way to express all the beauty and joy in his heart. I'm sure I'll look back at this entry and find it idealist, childish and a little corny, but sometimes you just have to be that way. Sometimes you just have to let the child in you out. If this past week has taught me anything, it's that there are times that you just have to let your heart speak for you.

Have you ever had one of those days where something seems off? You can't quite put your finger on it, but you know something is wrong. I had one of those days today. It wasn't until halfway through the day that I discovered what was wrong with me. I had my boxers on backwards. I rule at life!

In other news, VT was able to edge NC State to win their season opener.
Not this time, Mork. Nanu Nanu.

got shley?

I have come to realize that I live in a fantasy world. I think it has something to do with not being satisfied with where I am and always wanting more. I live in my own world with my own thoughts sometimes. I find that sometimes when I'm with people I'll just tune everyone out around me and just think to myself. The world I've created in within my mind has become better than the world I currently reside.

That's not necessarily a bad thing, though. Everyone dreams of becoming bigger and better than they are. My problem is that my thoughts have started to interfere with my real life. I suffer because I live in my fantasy world so much now that I neglect my real world duties. This isn't to say that I'm imagining myself in fantastic tales of heroism and mythology. It is more that I think about what if's. What if I did finish school? What if I had chosen a different field earlier? What if I had gotten more experience in this while I had the chance, what if I took my music more seriously? What if things had worked out differently?

It's weird that I do this, though because I'm a staunch believer in avoiding what if's. I know I can't change the past and the choices I've made. I can only accept it and move forward. The longer I dwell on it, the longer I stagnate and don't get anywhere. I know these things, yet I don't put them into action. I frustrate myself sometimes.

On another note:
I have a job interview on Friday!

some more tests

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